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Lo trovo molto difficile questo momento…ho un ragazzo che ha la personlita bravissimo,tutto quello che posso desiderare da un ragazzo e con lui mah e arrivato il momento che mi sono confusa…cambiato qualcosa dentro me…non’e uguale come era prima…sento qualcosa che manca ma non so che cos’e….loro dicono che normale perche noi due siamo lontani mah sento che non’e cosi..piu di un mese che non abbiamo parlato mah non lo cerco mai la sua voce…non mi sento triste..anzi mi sento libera…non lo so…non voglio fare del male nessuno mah credo che non sono innamorata con lui…che devo fare?aiuto!!!

Havent you experience being in trouble with yourself? Feeling strange of everything that seems you dont recognize yourself at all?Doing things that you havent done before?Its too difficult…You wanna talk to someone but you’re afaid that they wont understand you? or nobody’s there to listen?How are you going to handle this situation?Its complicated,right?well..thats how i found it this time…It seems that i want to give up…I said to myself that im too weak to have such complications…Dont know what to do…I cant pretend to be strong when im not…Feeling so down in everything…Im not sure if i could find some solutions for all of my problems..but,i hope so..

Is it too hard if there’s no one to
talk with.. if you feel alone and
think that no one understands
you…Its too heavy to bring all the
problems that you’ve encountered
without someone to share with, someone
to listen ,someone who’s willing to
console you…Its very very
difficult…
Me? its not my habit to trust
people easily, to show them up all my
difficulties, letting them know what i
feel inside…And, it makes me feel
more depress…The only way for me to
lighten my feeling is to throw
everything away by writing it on a
piece of paper and by crying as long
i can until my mind will clear up and
Ill feel better, feels that
something heavy has taken away from
me…
But if you think its better for
you to open it up with someone whom
you think you can trust,then,do
it….dont be afraid….dont worry
everything’s gonna be fine….we just
need a little time to settle it! Just
dont lose your hope ’cause in every
problem there’s always an appropriate
solution…You’ll see!

Cuore,cuore mio,che accade?

Che cosa ti opprime a tal segno?

Una ben strana vita è cominciata!

Non ti riconosco più!

Tutto quello che amavi è ormai scomparso,

scomparso quello che ti tormentava,

scomparsi il tuo lavoro,la tua pace.

Ma a questo punto come sei arrivato?

Fu quella giovenezza in fiore a prenderti

con potere ilimitato?

Furono quelle sembianze amabili,

quello sguardo dolce è sincero?

Se tento risoluto di sottrarmi,

di reprendermi,di sfuggiarle;

nello stesso istante i miei passi

mi riportano.ahimè,accanto a lei.

E con questo sottile filo magico

che non si lascia spezzare,

la bella spavalda mi tiene

avvinto a lei,contro il mio volere

nel suo cerchio magico adesso

devo vivere alla sua maniera.

Che sconvolgente cambiamento!

Amore,amore,lasciami libero.

                                              Johann Wolfgang Goethe

What is the real life being abroad?Most of the people thinks that being abroad is really good…I often heared them saying "WOW!ABROAD! But,if you gonna ask me i’ll tell you that it depends upon the situition.There’s some case that its really good like being here for a living with family(not here for work). Well..in my case its difficult,it’s some kind of sacrifice being away from home,far from family and friends etc.etc..I found it really hard.Maybe it’s because its my first work experience then ang layo pa..nsanay kc ako that my mom is always there for me(i was spoiled by my mom)since im just studying there in my country…then,suddenly,i’m here alone, working, learning to stand with my own(its not easy).When I’m still in the airport i’ved already missed everything.Lalo na when i arrived here…I couldnt explain my feelings…It’s a mixed emotion…I’m afraid of what will be happen since i dont know what kind of people they have here.But,fortunately,i have my two elder sisters and aunt here who helped me…Besides,there’s a good friend of my aunt(DON TOMMASO-the most kind hearted priest that i’ved known),we’re(me and my sisters) staying in his house without paying bills…"He’s a good samaritan"My first work is in his aunt-old person who got the age above 80.Know what?Its terrible! ang sma ng ugali since tanda na,la n sa tmang pag iisip kya kung anu-ano nlng cnsbi…The worst thing is they dont want me to take care of her(ayaw magpalinis ng sarili)it really gives me pressure that i’ved always cried..I thought of going back in my country.Naisip ko kc buti pa dun di q nrnasan ang gnun kht mhrap lng kmi but still di nmn ako npgtaasan ng boses at npgsalitaan ng msskt na slita(di aq snay n gnun)but,im not just thinking for my self(im not that selfish anyway)im thinking of my family..i need to work to help them(i still have younger sisters who are studying)thats why i stopped my last year in college and work here instead.Nhhiya na kc ako sa mga kapatid q-they work hard while me just studying,asking money from them(pti p mga younger sis q),they’re working for all of us..i wanna helped them too.So,i decided to continue though its difficult…(its not easy to be here)but,atleast i can help my family…

Prima di tutto voglio augurarci di buon natale a tutti vuoi è felicè nuovo anno…sperò chè siète felicè con lè vostrè famigli…

"In every problem there’s always an appropriate solution…HAVE FAITH IN HIM AND HE WILL GUIDE YOU AND LIGHT UP YOUR WAY"…whatever circumstances you may be encounter dont worry everything will be alright…though for how many times you failed for something,dont lose hope just stand up and continue struggling until you’ll reach the end of your journey…remember that trials are part of our daily lives…all the hardships that we experienced is only trials for how deep our faith in him…"SACRIFICE IS THE ONLY WAY TO SUCCESS…" THE FRUIT DERRIVED FROM LABOR IS THE SWEETEST AMONG ALL PLEASURE."You need to sacrifice for everything if you want to have something…HE will help us always but we need to cooperate with him..we cant have what we want if we wont work for it…mind needs the cooperation of our hands..it is neccessary that both hands,body and mind will cooperate to each other in everything..when we got the victory its something indescribable  feeling…its so sweet victory when you work hard for it…"DONT DO UNTO OTHER’S WHAT YOU DONT WANT OTHER’S DO UNTO YOU" if you want that other people will respect you then you also need to respect them.you gonna show them that you have respect for yourself…the first move will starts from you…"LOVE ISNT LOVE UNTIL YOU GIVE IT AWAY"before doing something you need to think a billion times of it before proceeding.think first all the possiblities(advantages and disadvantages)in doingsuch thing because "regret is always at the end,it dont came from the beginning"DON’T JUDGE THE BOOK BY ITS COVER BUT BY ITS CONTENT"who know’s… though it dont look good but its content is more relevant than those who looked good..